Is Christmas today been very hard without the kids as they are all away as much as I know this is the last time ever I will be childless at Christmas. The kids go see their other parent alternate years so every second year we have all 3 then the next is NONE. As much as this year I was focused on the fact it was time for Aaron and I, I was so teary and on edge about the fact the kids were not with me. My 2 went to QLD and have been gone for a few days and I am dying for them to come home. When Jake rings he says “you’re so far away from you mum.” I feel like a knife stabbing me. Rachel rang today and had a tantrum because she wanted to play; as much as I know she is busy with the other kids I was hurt. I could hear she was tired and when she ended up calling later she said she was tired and had a long sleep today. Keeley was with her mum today and we will pick her up Saturday wasn’t as bad knowing she is home so soon but I also know when she gets here she will also be so upset and blobby, pining for the other 2.
The only savior for missing my kids so badly and ANOTHER Christmas I had planned to spend with my folks I couldn’t get to see them was the fact after next June never will Aaron and I spend a Christmas alone. We will only get all together alternate yearly but I know when we are without the other 3 I will have our baby to cuddle and pine too.
Today we went to Nan’s house for lunch. We spent the night last night at the Rendezvous and had a wonderful breakfast this morning. I showed everyone the scan pictures which was a bit of a hoot, Kate thinks it looks like a potato, Nan thinks it was tiny and Karen now believes I am really pregnant and not just eating too much. We had lots of laughs and chatted about names and genders etc. I wasn’t not a good girl I eat all the wrong things including 2 oysters and 5 prawns. I also ate way too much but I always do that. I had champagne and OJ which was so yummy and wonderful Christmas drinks but needed to go back to OJ or soft drink as gave me light headedness with barely ½ a cup, Shows how much your body changes without any for 3 months.
On Christmas eve Aaron and I went to see the psychiatrist she up my dose of meds so I can sleep better. I also got the NT scan results Down Syndrome 1:9999 so nice and low for us not to worry about. Funny enough says my EDD was 24th June 2009. I will be bringing that up with Gus when I see him on 12/1/09.
My Christmas Day Belly
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